Being a single Mom is hard. Don’t get me wrong, I have help. I have a very giving family and my ex husband is still a huge help to me regarding my two oldest children. They say it takes a village and I have mine.
But what about being ready to leave your village for a new relationship?
How does any of this work?
It doesn’t. My dating life often feels like a mess. Developing feelings for someone has never been an issue for me. Actually, I am one to easily get attached.
Never in my life have I felt hard to love,
My day starts with three chatty, active little boys and it ends with three cranky, overly tired little boys. They are at such different ages that I am constantly running to meet each child’s needs. Do not get me wrong, I love my kids more than any thing or anyone. They are my whole world but how does one person juggle all of these roles?
Since the “stay at home” order started, I added so many more roles to my, already tiring, life. In a full 24 hours, I am a Mom, a third grade teacher, a 4K teacher, a full time slobber rag for my nine month old, the PE teacher, the principle, the Art teacher, etc. The list is endless. This doesn’t include my normal daily schedule.
Then, somewhere in there, I pencil myself in if I am lucky. So how do I establish a relationship when my daily routine doesn’t even allow me to shower by myself?
While I am flattered that someone wants to date me, talk to me on the phone daily, text me throughout the day while trying to keep the spark alive, I AM EXHAUSTED.
When the sun goes down, I become the whiny mom who just needs a break but I don’t get that. Once again, I am far from complaining. I love my little humans but realistically, they can be tiny terrors sometimes. So I finally get everyone to bed and my phone starts ringing or I have three missed text. Once again, I am flattered that someone wants to get to know me and be there for me. I want that relationship. I want that bond but it is so hard to establish.
I come off as a miserable person or someone who doesn’t have time for anyone. My life feels like a huge contradiction. I’m so ready to share life with someone, yet I can hardly hold a conversation on the phone.
So riddle me this, is there such thing as dating without involving your children in today’s society?