I believed in what I wanted to see.
I made you out to be someone I knew you could never be.
It came down to the facts
and every time you didn’t have my back.
I lost myself along the way,
while you kept choosing not to stay.
I wish sometimes we could just coexist
But the truth is, I never knew what I missed.
I missed out on a normal life.
I waited around until I had nothing more to hide.
You were someone that I used to know
I have even thought about the things I chose.
The things I did to cope with life
Will never be able to be justified.
There was a time when I dreamed of us growing grey and old.
We would laugh about what we thought the future would hold.
It never ends up the way we like
But I am realizing you were never worth the fight.
I am learning now what loyalty is
And keeping promises while sleeping in the same bed.
One day soon I will know what it is like,
To not tip toe around with everyday being constant fight or flight.
Maybe we would have worked out in another life
But for now I am learning how to change me.
This time it just is not out of spite.
I can happily say, I’m no longer yours’s to hold.
You drowned my soul
And wrecked my peace.
The signs were there.
I just chose not to see.